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Maya
04:47
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Maya
You’re a light
Maya
You keep me right
I’m lonely
I’m turning into a garden
And i’m over grown
If only
If only
i could wake up
And grow
Controlling
The walls
And the doors
The way i walk
But i don’t
Or i won’t
Or i can't
Maya i’m feeling low down that I’m digging a secondary basement
The heaviest point that my head has reached since education
I’m wasting life elation I’m melting into the carpet
And i’m fading i’m fading
Just hold me
If only
I would know things
And grow
Into a whole me
And the world is the earth not just my head
I'm traversing the universe while i’m undressed
Maya
I’m a user
I’m codependent on the futurist musings of companies in old california
They own me
They own me
And they know me
And everything I’ve typed in to google
I am a
I am a loner
Oh
Keep me in boxes forever
Underneath mattress
Then again
Someone will find me
Oh
Wash me up under the water
And let me flow down to the
Sewer
(Let me flow down)
Maya
You are abusive
Everything you said was an illusion
You selected and dissected the world
When it's all connected
It's a wholeness
Nothing separate
I am it
He is it
She is it
And that’s just the way that it’s always been
Then again
I have no say in it
Be with it
You are it
And i think that i am ok with this
But i don’t really know
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Happy
03:53
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(Windows XP Error Sound FX)
I’m looking at glass most days now
I’m looking at some right now
I’m looking at you in widescreen
through a haze of pills
I’m almost happy
And I hope you trust me
So little me where you going
I’ll tell you something
it hard just living
when you are older
you’re never stronger
it never stops
So little me where you going
I’ll tell you something
just come right here
it hard just living
when you are older
you’re never stronger
it never stops
(Now - I’m almost happy)
So little me where you going
I’ll tell you something
just come right here
it hard just living
when you are older
you’re never stronger
it never stops
So little me i know you more than
you could ever understand
living’s easy when you are something
and you are something
something else
I’m almost happy
I’m almost
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Nothing
04:17
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I’m new to this space
I don’t know how to interact
I need validation
Oh baby be patient
I’m only an infant
A tiny white insect
A smudge on your iPhone
A speck on your eyelid
I sleep under floor boards
With an outdated wardrobe
I’d rock a choker
If I was your boyfriend
But I tell you nothing
I tell you nothing
Baby you’re perfect
You keep it 100
24/7
Can I have your number?
Your internet address?
I’ll slide in your DMs
A subversive message
At least that’s my intent
If I do something
But i do nothing
(I love me and you should too)
(That’s if i got up and talked to you)
I’ll do something
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Lover of Land
02:12
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Drill me down in the ground
I'm a lover of land
My hand is empty
My head is full
Dreams of being at school
Floating dead in the pool
My blood is tasty
When I'm cold
I'll warm up in time
I'll microwave my life
J's at daddy's right hand
"Feel me, I have a plan!"
The time I wasted
On Google Chrome
I don't have any band,
No job or five year plan
Part of me's human
And part's machine
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Animal
01:38
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Up, I’m living in my head
my mother said it’s wrong
so i say “come down’ again
oh, my mind is just a lie
i heard when I was five
but still it says “come down’ again
all the times that i have cried
about the fact i will die
never changed anything
so, why did i think that it would?
the power of my blood?
i will never know
I’m just an animal
with a self inflated head
plus all the weight of worlds
and the worries of its health
expressed in countless words
but inside i’m warm and red;
a lonely animal,
not a holy man
Low, I’m falling down a hole
I’m heavy and I’m slow
Sprawling, flat, unwound again
Life you’re burning and your bright
Electric and alive
Science don’t enlighten it
all the time I sit and cry
about the fact i will die
hoping to enliven it
but no, the message’s blunt and
hope will always just be hope
and never something more
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Playstation One
02:55
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7. |
... And I Know It
01:45
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I live alone
Apartment 1
I live above
An awful hum
My living room
Is beige as fu
I can't get out
The door is locked
Sing happy cos I know it
Happy and I know it
Happy and I own it
Dead if I disown it
Everybody knows it
"Happy and I know it"
Dead if I disown it
Head inside an oven
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8. |
MKMIAR
02:43
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Mother keep me in a rut
Wash my mouth out by the tap
Drain my innards ma
there's poison in my mind and i've no gut
Mother keep me in a rut
Feed me up so muscles work
My fridge is open
now my house is cold
and all the food has died
And so will I
Mother keep me in a rut
Devising handlebars for sharks
My mind made up and all the stars aligned
If all the moons were mine
It's a lie
I could die and the world won't give a damn
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Out
02:01
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Jhansi's gonna come back home
Find a girl in the house
....k with her with eyes alone
Never opening her mouth
Jhansi you're a holy ghost
Emote with your ouija board
Channeling a ghostly warm
They try so hard to work you out
Work you out
I don't pray to God
Cos I don't play for your ire
Know you're going to come back home
They try to work you out
Try to work you out!
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Ooa
04:32
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When the night runs away from the sun
Fill the void, wake me up
Little finger, the index and thumb
Play the chord, write a song
I'd a plan for my life but I stopped
Mother called, sending love
Idly I do nothing at all
Carry on, Carry on
Skin, bone, hold me so
Tight. My curtains closed
Dreams lie, still I love
The touch, the cold
Lay down, I unfurl
Warm wine in my blood
Eyes lie, still I learnt
I'm alive and it hurts
Drip drip, do you hear?
Where's the hole?
Is in near?
Was it there from the start all along?
Thinking back.
Thinking's slow
Thinking: Oh, I'm alive, I'm alone
Still I smile
Still I lie to myself
Still I sleep
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11. |
Alright/Fine
03:07
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And when you’re gone
You fall in love with all the light
Telling you when you from, all things you did wrong,
All the things you did right
Told my body’s just wired so I feel it’s on ice
All the people I love making sure that I’m strong all the way to the night
You let me know that everything is alright
Fine when you’re on my mind
I'm terrified
To know my heart and lungs
Could just stop any minute
Without even saying goodbye
All of my friends
All of time
You’re on my mind
You’re on my mind
Just let me know that everything is alright
Fine ‘cause you’re on my mind
You let me know that everything is alright
Fine when you’re on my mind
And when you’re gone
You fall in love with all the light
Telling you when you from, all things you did wrong,
All the things that went did right
Told my body's on fire when I feel it's all ice
All the people I love making sure that I’m strong all the way to the night
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